I watched the CBC Passionate eye..65_ RedRoses..the story of Eva Markvoort. Eva had CF and she shared her life with lucky people through her blog and then through her movie. Eva has touched me and I am saddened that she died b4 I could lay eyes on her. I feel her, though. Love Love Love. Crying a lot today. So much overwhelming feelings about everything. As I sit here, in depression, feeling like I cant go on, tears stream and plop on my lap, heavy heart...I want to be free, to fly, to bring joy, to help others, but I sit in my sorrow and hide in my pain,,,but it is ok,I am ok, I must have to be ok. heavy heart today. But perhaps it will be lighter tomorrow.. Eva has no more tomorrows and I sit here in despair.