I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH I LOVE STAR BUX COFFEE...I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH LONELINESS I FEEL ALL THE TIME. I TRY TO CONNECT WITH PEEPS BUT I .....I ...WELL I LOVE A LOT THAT IS FOR SURE. I NEVER KNEW THAT I HAD SUCH CAPACITY FOR LOVE BUT I DO ...I JUST NEVER KNOW THE RIGHT PLACE TO PUT IT. 40. 40.I AM GOING TO BE FORTY,,,AN I AM NOT SURE THAT I HAVE LIVED MY TRUE LIFE. DONE THE RIGHT THINGS. I HAVE BEEN WEALTHY,SUCCESSFUL,TRAVELLED, MEN HAVE LOVED ME..THEN WHY THIS LUMP IN THE THROAT? I HAVE VOLUNTEERED IN SOUP KITCHENS AND HOMELESS SHELTERS ....PLUGGED THE DAMS WITH SANDBAGS..SIGH. TODAY I WILL ACCOMPLISH 3 THINGS. (YES , IT HAS COME TO THIS) GO TO EAST SIDE OF VAN AND TAKE SOME SHOTS FOR THE PROJECT I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR 5 YRS. WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS TRY TO STAUNCH THE FLOW OF TEARS??? OF MY TEARS...THINGS GET TO ME AND I LOVE THAT I AM ABLE TO SHOW MY FEELINGS TO ANYONE AND BE DAMN THE ONES THAT ARE UNCOMFORTABLE!!! SLAP ON A PAIR OF BALLS AND FEEL IT!!! IT WONT KILL YOU!